Today has been a particularly difficult day for me. I am exhausted, feeling sick as usual (a bit more sick today), my daughter is up and crying for me to hold her. I am so frustrated at how things are going. I have been up since 4:30 am and only laid down for only 30 minutes today and that was because I need to do this to get my son to sleep. So it has not been me taking a rest at all.
My husband is at work and will be home late this evening due to an evening meeting. Oh Lord, not today! Let him come home early today!
I am here struggling with the thoughts of self pity- Why do I have the worst sleepers? Why have I been sick for the last 2 years 8 months with no end in sight? Why do I not get any rest?
I am sitting here, with tears in my eyes and more so in my heart…
But I am praying.
I am praying through my tears…my tears of frustration, of feeling overwhelmed, of the physical pain from being sick…I am praying through it all.
And I know I will be heard because God loves me!